failure IS an option

“I have not failed 700 (10,000) times. I have not failed once. I have succeeded in proving that those 700 (10,000) ways will not work. When I have eliminated the ways that will not work, I will find the way that will work.” -Edison*

*Different sources at 700 or 10,000. I haven’t taken the time to really go through which one is (more) accurate*

Failure. Just hearing the word sounds so horrible. Whether it was an incident/task that was a failure or someone calling you a failure, it just hurts.

But is it really bad? The Edison quote is kinda motivational. It lends to a personal belief I’ve tried to cultivate and reinforces my happiness that I let my last regret (that I’m aware of) go. A failure IS a bad thing when you let it hold you back or beat you down. It is NOT a bad thing when you can learn from it and grow from that moment. Take what you can, whatever it is and apply it to the future. It’s that idea we’ve heard that we must learn from the past to keep from making the same mistakes in the future. There’s plenty of time and room for new ones.

I don’t hold any false notions that I won’t fail again. I could cite a lifetime of examples of making the same or similar mistakes over and over again. The number of women that I’ve dated that seemed so normal in the beginning… that would be for another article.

How boring would life be if everything were perfect and structured? Would we be so perfect and structured that we wouldn’t care? Not that I could envision how this would occur other than some kind of group mind. Even the Borg had their own problems it seemed. But in some ways like them, it’s the struggle, the journey to try and reach a state of having fewer repeat failures. I’m all fine for making a brand new smart failure. Then I don’t feel so bad.

-Santa’s Fallen Angel

 

eggs and chickens

That’s what I’m calling today’s thoughts.

What’s this about? Beginnings and endings or should it be endings and beginnings? That’s what. What beginnings and ends you ask. Or maybe you don’t ask. I’m writing for me anyway.

Does my past push me to into the future, whatever it may be, or does the future that I hold in my heart and mind pull me forward?

I know I am the sum of my past. That’s a given for me. I try to not turn away from painful memories or experiences. They’ve helped to make me… me. If you like the me that I am, yeah! that’s my past at work. If you don’t, deal with it. This is who you get. At least until such time that I am the me in the future.

Sometimes I wonder who I am and ponder the choices I’ve made in my life and what they mean for my future. Back to the previous idea, do I let my past push me forward or do I be led into my future? Where or when is the role for taking leaps of faith? Belief and faith are different for me. If I believe, I hold it true (or mostly true) in my mind. Let it be so as it were. Faith is that which requires “a leap of faith.” That idea that you don’t know what’s coming up and are hoping it’s going to turn out well. Many times with crossed fingers and palpitations and lots of stress.

There are parts of my past that I want in my future and I’m working to try to get those in place. I have a very vague view of what I want for my future. On a set of scales I feel I’m still at balance though. Bringing those parts of my past into the present will take some work and might be a fail but will be well worth the effort I hope. Should I be trying to clear up the picture of my future or continue to hold onto this vague idea and try not to rock the tiny skiff that I’m on? I am a pretty weak swimmer. Is drowning bad though? It may suck but it can pretty eye-opening and very educational. Maybe if I dive I’ll grow gills and follow a new path. Hey, I’ll admit it, I thought Ariel was pretty hot when the movie came out. That wouldn’t have been such a bad path if I had landed on that one back then.

I don’t know what my future holds and for right now that isn’t such a bad thing. I’m not going in blind, just not trying to force anything right now.

Perhaps one of these following pictures may solve the original question.

http://static.fjcdn.com/pictures/Chicken_a21dc7_685833.jpg

http://i305.photobucket.com/albums/nn227/BlameThrower_photo/WhichCameFirst_Fullpic_11.gif

http://druniverse.wsu.edu/wp-content/uploads/2011/05/2001Winter_AskDrUniverse_chicken_egg.jpg

-Santa’s Fallen Angel